No Mas, No Mas *

*The famous phrase uttered by Roberto "Fists of Stone" Duran in his third and final fight against Sugar Ray Leonard.

Despite the potential last minute moves of the 11th Circuit Court, Terri Schiavo is out of our reach now. The legal options appear to be exhausted and there is no recourse through any other branch of government. The judges have spoken and the advocates for “rights of privacy” and “death with dignity” have had their day. A judicial “finding of fact,” namely that it was Terri’s wish that she would not be sustained artificially has been the uncrackable acorn. That a request was made by Congress to review the case “de novo,” has been ignored. That Michael Schiavo remembered Terri’s wishes after he had received the settlement money and despite several witnesses coming forward saying that Michael had told them early on he wished he knew what Terri had wanted should gnaw at the conscience of those jurists…but I doubt it will. But now it is time for those of us on the side of life to return to the political trenches and not to turn on those that can help us most. The Randall Terry/Reverend Mahoney screeching does nothing for the cause except harden the hearts of those on the left and alienate the uninvolved and persuadable people in the middle.

Dear reader, the Rumbler has not gone soft...I do not advocate a policy of squishy accommodation…”can’t we all just get along?” Rather, we must steel our hearts and minds to the task at hand and that is to steadily replace the current cadre of judges with men and women who will read the law and the Constitution and administer justice accordingly. These are folks who will not invent rights or push a social agenda…they are the product of a growingly conservative society that is sick of watching travesties like being forced to watch Terri starve to death or the repeat offenses of recidivist criminals who are set loose on us because of some judge’s “compassion.” It is difficult to understand a judicial system that has more compassion for a repeat child molester than a poor woman who has the misfortune to be brain damaged.

It is time for us to push for changes in our state laws. If there is no living will or medical power of attorney, we must err on the side of life...especially in the case of the mentally challenged or the infrim. Let Terri be an Alamo for us that we can move on to legislative San Jacintos with, but let’s not blow it by acting like people who need anger management classes.

Governor Bush in Florida and President Bush in Washington have both followed the law. The Congress of the United States followed the law. It is the judiciary that has not. To have Jeb ride in with Florida State Troopers, the National Guard and the ill-performing Department of Family Services would be a travesty along the lines of the seizure of Elian Gonzalez.

Let the ghoulish words of Michael Schiavo’s lawyer, George Felos , that Terri was “beautiful and at peace” as she starved to death galvanize us and move us forward. There is nothing beautiful about Auschwitz…there is nothing beautiful about murdering the helpless…there is nothing peaceful about dying publicly.

The Greatest Fear

Today I got an Easter card at work from my adoptive mother. I haven't talked to her in nearly a year and a half. This sounds horrible, I know, but part of me hasn't missed it. All the card said was "I love you as you are, Mom."

Maybe you are thinking, "What's wrong with that? She sounds okay to me." I don't trust it. I don't trust her. I have a hard time putting it into words, but I think it's a front. Yes, I think she's lying to me. I want to believe her and trust her. More than anything, I want to have a real mother that I can talk to and trust. She doesn't even know where I live or have my home number.

Nearly 10 years ago (God, almost exactly 10 years ago) we had a screaming match to 4am where she prayed to God about how ashamed she was of me. Can you imagine how that makes a child feel? Then she wanted me to go to a Christian "counselor" in an entirely different state. After weeks and months of post-it notes on bathroom mirrors day and night and 12 page letters with Bible quotes, I couldn't imagine getting into a car, alone, with her and trusting her to not just get me there but to bring me back too. I've heard the nightmare stories and I didn't want to be a statistic.

The life, and inevitable, death we've heard this week of Terri Schiavo only makes my fears more pronounced. I don't want to be Terri. Locked in my body, my partner powerless to help me, as my family drags me off to an endless dark oblivion I never wanted. It's out there now in the land of the Internet for all to know. Don't let me end up like Terri. If I can't make my own choices over my body, my life, and my death, then let my partner and only my partner make that decision.

More Rights, Please

A bill has been introduced in the House and Senate and has bipartisan support to protect worker's religious activities.

"The Workplace Religious Freedom Act ...bill would expand the rights of some employees in the workplace under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964 in a way that would require employers to engage in efforts to accommodate an employee's religious practices and observances at the expense of other employees' civil rights."

http://www.365gay.com/newscon05/03/032105faithBill.htm

Dude, pass some civil rights this way. I haven't seen anyone discriminated against because of their religion at work. In fact, I see more co-workers take time off for bar mitzvahs, christenings, "Christian" weddings, mission trips, etc., but I will only post on this blog at home because God forbid (no pun intended) that my political or "personal" activity may be traced on my work computer. Don't think I don't sweat it every time I march in a Pride Parade or attend a protest against one of the numerous amendments.

Don't talk to me about discrimination. These folks have NO CLUE!

Contradictions

In the mornings coming to work, I sometimes pass, or am passed by, a minivan with dualing stickers. It’s a contradiction for this woman to have these two stickers on her car: “Marriage= 1man+1woman” and “United We Stand.”

Do these people realize you can’t create unity with a policy of separate but equal, or should I just say separate and left out. For it’s these same people, who want to nix the possibilities of civil unions and domestic partnerships because they think it’s the same as a marriage.

Question, do they call their marriage a civil union? No. Therefore, it is NOT the same thing. Stated this way, their ASSHOLENESS is evident. They’re just plain evil and mean.

"Or the rifle knocks him dead"*

There is a simple reality to the human condition: from the moment we are born, we begin to die. Death comes upon us in a variety of ways. You may die of a sudden accident, a car crash, a building collapse. You may die when an incurable disease seizes your body and you are overcome by its strength. You may die of a hereditary ailment that was planted in your genetic code centuries ago or you may die because something wasn’t put together just right in your body and at age 44, an aneuristic vein in your head bursts in your sleep. You may die of “old age,” when the systems God gave you at your birth finally wear out. Finally, you may die when another individual takes your life, depriving you of air or mobility or food. In battle we call this latter condition a “combat casualty.” In civilized society we term it “murder.”

We can debate the politics of the Terri Schiavo’s case till all the forests in Oregon have been harvested with our newsprint…but we cannot deny the circumstances under which she is currently dying. This is not a “mercy killing,” a euthanasia such as we might do for an aging pet. This is a murder. Court sanctioned and husband blessed, this unfortunate soul is being starved before our very eyes. Allow me to play devil’s advocate for a second (an unfortunate term at this juncture) and assume that Terri will never return to any kind of cognitive state would slipping her an extra dose of anesthetic in her arm be more or less cruel than what is currently happening? Despite Rumbler’s Red State values and my Catholicism, I could actually handle that better. Why are those that so want Terri dead not calling for this final step? Because the action then, however “merciful,” would become obvious: it is murder.
I’ve been on a Bob Dylan kick lately – one of the many cycles of music I swing through, and there’s a line in “Ring them Bells” that says:
Oh the lines are long
And the fighting is strong
And they're breaking down the distance
Between right and wrong.
The entire song’s lyrics are a powerful indictment of our current society, but that line stuck with me last night as I was watching the videotape of Terri following the balloon. A Fox News poll being touted last night that 61% of Americans favored removing Terri’s feeding tube. But you need to look at the wording of the questions (note too that the date of the article is June, 2004). The whole battery is set up with the definition of Terry being in a “Permanent Vegetative State.” Now when I think “vegetable” and juxtapose it with “human,” I have a vision of a person that is completely immobile, with no eye movement, no recognition of people or objects. That is NOT the condition Schiavo is in! As painful as it is, look at the videotape. She can track objects, her facial demeanor changes when her mother approaches her bed; her eyes move from person to person…this is not a vegetative state. This definition is particularly disconcerting when you consider they haven’t even performed a PET scan on her to determine the amount of brain damage. Further, there’s evidence from at least one nurse that worked with Terri to indicate that she interacted with staff at the hospice AND chillingly, that her husband didn’t want her to be fed or for any type of therapy to be conducted with her. (Click here, and scroll down till you get to “Carla Sauer Lyer” section. The same nurse has also made the accusation that Michael Schiavo tried to kill Terri using insulin.) Pray tell that our courts have not become so desensitized to the lives they affect that they won’t at least give her a chance. The decision is easy…let’s look at what both sides want:
I. Michael Schiavo wants:
a) To be rid of Terri so he can re-marry his common law wife by whom he has two children.
b) He wants the malpractice insurance proceeds of $700,000.
II. Terri’s parent want:
a) Their daughter to be given a chance to live.
b) To take responsibility for that.
Without having to check into a Holiday Inn Express for a crash course in judicial decision-making, here’s a reasonable solution:
a) Get rid of Terri by awarding custody to her parents.
b) Split the proceeds of the insurance settlement between the two parties and
c) Since Terri’s parents are willing to take care of her, have private donations foot the go-forward medical bills not the taxpayers.
Why won't this perfectly logical and fair solution work? Well there are two reasons and both of them point to Michael Schiavo. First, he claims the money is already spent and would have to account for it. Second, what if Terri miraculously healed enough to where she could speak again and could start to explain what happened to her the night the chemical imbalance put her into her current state? I do not wish to indict Michael without the facts, but it is passing strange that a man who pledged before God to "love and to honor in sickness and in health," is so determined to give up hope on his wife and devote his life and lucre to her demise.
What does this case say about us as a people? It is troubling that our nation, the champion of the downtrodden, is willing to put national prestige and power behind helping tsunami victims is unwilling to help those least able to help themselves. It is troubling that we would venture far from home to liberate oppressed peoples but we seem incapable of feeding one that cannot feed herself. The distance between right and wrong has narrowed considerably here at home. Are we becoming an evil society? Yesterday's news out of Bemidji, Minnesota brings another symptom of the disease in the death of nine innocent students at the local high school. In many minds, life is but a commodity, it is no longer a precious gift...no longer a miracle. If you look at our abortion culture we see the same thing. A new website, www.secondlookproject.org presents the chilling facts on the rates of abortion in what those in the blue states would call our "God soaked culture." Boil down the statistics in there and you find that 90% of the 1.3 million abortions done each year are matters of convenience and 48% of the recipients are repeat users.
No, I do not believe we are an evil society. I do believe we are too busy to pay attention to the impact of decisions being made and to project them into the future. When Roe V. Wade passed, I doubt that anyone sitting on the bench of the Warren Court could have believed that 3o years later their decision would have spawned an industry of death. The Schiavo case is the Roe v. Wade of today. If a husband can murder his wife because her continued existance is inconvenient, then who is safe? Senior citizens should think very clearly about this one as we approach a Social Security system that will require up to 50% income taxes on the working to fund those in retirement. If we can dumb down the definition of "vegetative state," can we not logically dumb down the requirements for living a "healthy and fulfilling" life? We stand on a slippery slope and are losing our grip.
In the movie "The Year of Living Dangerously," Linda Hunt, playing the Indonesian cameraman Billy Kwan, is working with Guy Hamilton, played by Mel Gibson. There is a moving exchange when Billy is touring Guy through one of Djakarta's slums and he (she) challenges Guy with Tolstoy's famous title, borrowed from Luke 3:10, "what then must we do?" At the center of this storm is a court system that has become the last bastion (other than academia) of the hard-core left. It needs to be reformed to better reflect the values of the majority. This is not a civil rights issue...no one should ever be denied due process (unless of course you are in a "vegetative state" in Florida!). It is a simple fact that the U.S. Court system no longer reflects our nation's values and instead of legislating based on our Constitution and the law, they render verdicts based on personal biases. President Bush is trying hard to get some strict constitutionalists back on the bench and is being obstructed in the Senate by the Democrat threat of filibuster. This must be stopped and I encourage every Red State reader to contact their Senator and, if they be in the "D" column, encourage them to allow up-or-down votes. If they be in the "R" column, encourage them to take control and end the practice of filibustering judicial nominees. The failure of those on the left to win at the ballot box should not allow them to win on the bench.
Look into the face of a dying Terri Schiavo and consider it our national soul that is starving to death. Our national love affair with the culture of death must end here for the sake of ourselves, our elderly and our children. The oft repeated phrase of De'Tocqueville rings so true at this disturbing moment: "America is great because she is good. If she ceases to be good, she will cease to be great."
*"Or the rifle knocks him dead..." for some reason this phrase from Yeats' "Under Ben Bulben" has been haunting me ever since the Schiavo affair burst on our consciousness.

Sorry Excuses for Fathers and our Leaders

With victories come other steps backwards. There's nothing like having someone always there to 'bitchslap' you back into place.

One thing I can say for Mary Cheney is that AT LEAST her father isn't as bad as Alan Keyes! At least Dick has the decency not to act like one when it comes to his daughter, not too much in public anyway. During the debates, Dick did say gays have a right to enter into any relationship they wanted to. Now, he didn't say we get to have the same rights heteros do, just that we can be in a relationship (gee, thanks). Keyes, on the other hand, after his daughter Maya comes out and he kicks her out of the house has the nerve to still say a "gay union would annililate" marriage.

This man, a black man at that, can't get past his hate for one minute to love his daughter unconditionally. Now, yes, that's the family values group for you. That's the open-armed, loving Christians we voted into our positions of leadership. Does Keyes not realize that a few years ago the same bubbas he's playing footsie with to relegate his own daughter to not just second-class citizenship but third-class citizenship are the same bubbas that would have strung him up for the color of his skin? That's sickening and beyond dispicable!

http://www.365gay.com/newscon05/03/031605keyes.htm

Now don't get me started on Bush. Once again, he is calling for a federal "marriage" amendment. Take a close look at that one some day and then go back a post or two. This amendment AGAIN like so many others that want to put us on the back burner does not actually mention us at all, but it certainly mentions the privileged individuals who get to partake of social and economic benefits of legal recognition. Who are these privileged individuals? Heterosexuals.

One step closer...a Republican Catholic judge in California says he sees not justifiable reason why gays shouldn't be able to marry, and suddenly our administration has to put a 'bitchslap' on it all. "Let the people decide," Bush says. The people get to decide about highways in their backyard and raising taxes because it directly affects them. They don't have a right to decide if a couple can protect themselves or not or get benefits from the state or not. If we did that, this country still wouldn't have blacks or women voting!

http://www.nytimes.com/2005/03/14/national/14cnd-gays.html?hp&ex=1110862800&en=36ac25fbb09fc5d8&ei=5094&partner=homepage

http://www.365gay.com/newscon05/03/031605bush.htm

Small Victories

Today was a small victory. The Tennessee House Children and Family Affairs Committee voted 11 to 9 to defeat the anti-gay adoption bill. Republican Rep. Chris Clem had previously allowed a “watered-down” version of the bill to go through committee in order to get it to the next level. At the committee meeting, Clem tried to reinstate the original version for a vote only to have it rejected. In fact, House Speaker Jimmy Naifeh stepped in to vote against the bill as well. Naifeh said he spoke with his daughters and with a group of high school students in his district for their opinion on the bill, and they all felt “the bill was wrong.”

http://www.outandaboutnewspaper.com/adoptionbillcommitteedefeated.htm

While this puts the hiatus on directly hurting children, the next hurdle in Tennessee is the anti-gay marriage amendment. My question to these legislators who are willing to look out for the well-being of children, at least enough to open doors to give them a home, where do you think these kids go? To a family. Maybe a gay family. How does the state expect these children to be protected to the best of their abilities without state protections and benefits being given to the families? This simply doesn’t make sense.

Throw Something Back

Maya Angelou was quoted as saying recently on Oprah Winfrey: “I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back.”

An article in The Tennessean today states that there are two opposing groups fighting the gay marriage amendment making its way through the legislature so Tennessee’s citizens can vote on everyone’s rights. One is the Tennessee Equality Project, a gay right’s group, and the other is the Family Policy Network of Tennessee, a conservative group.

http://www.tennessean.com/government/archives/05/03/66999996.shtml?Element_ID=66999996

A gay Nashvillian, Greg Gardner, who may or may not be associated with TEP (I don’t know), was quoted as saying, “We're not asking for special privileges.”

I guess this would be fine and true if the “special privileges” didn’t already belong to heterosexuals. Maybe it would be more true to say we are asking to get on a level playing field with heterosexuals. They have the advantage in every aspect of society and we are asking to take part. We are asking to take responsibility for our families. This should be respected, not scoffed at.

The representative from FPN, Ron Shank (what a name!), thinks the legislation currently going forward is not harsh enough. He wants to close up the opportunity for loopholes for “legal recognition” of other forms of “same-gender contracts.”

Shank is not just out to “protect marriage.” He wants to stop legal, contractual recognition of our relationships. Does anyone realize that it costs a couple anywhere between $1000 and $2500 to set up legal documentation (living revocable trusts, medical and financial durable powers of attorney, wills, guardianship agreements, etc.)? We pay for the things that many heterosexuals take for granted or that courts respect through the marriage contract. This is something Shank, the FPN, and other “Christians” like him want to “pray” for the defeat of the current bill so they can develop something more hateful, demeaning, and constraining to couples and families trying to care for each other.

This is shameful!

My Verse-My Voice

"The powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?"
-Robin Williams' "Mr. Keating" in Dead Poet's Society

On March 11 in our local newspaper, The Tennessean, I added my verse, my voice, to others out there vying to be heard. The Tennessee Legislature is attempting to pass up to eight different bills this year against the gay and lesbian citizens of this state. The worst is not even against us, but against our children (or potential children). There are over 9,000 children in state homes in Tennessee. Last year, only 1,000 were successfully adopted.

The initial legislation was to completely bar anyone gay from being a foster or adoptive parent (single or "cohabitating"-since marriage isn't an option, you know); however, it went one step further in that it would bar placement in any home where a gay person lived. Therefore, a heterosexual couple couldn't foster if their lezzie aunt lived in the basement. This just put Tennessee above and beyond Florida and Virginia for homophobic stupidity, so the legislators decided to water it down to get it through committee.

Now, heterosexuals get "priority" in adoption cases. Okay, so if I want a leg up on the competition, I need to either A)produce a marriage license to prove my heterosexuality or B) if I am gay and still desperately want a child pretend to be straight to get around the system. Inevitably, it comes down to who we sleep with not whether we can care for a child, that makes us a good parent.

This is discrimination in coded-language. As I said in my Letter to the Editor, "The ''watered-down'' version is nothing more than a roundabout way of saying the state of Tennessee is not discriminating against gay couples, but giving preference to heterosexual couples. Heterosexual couples also get preference in marriage rights, insurance benefits, hospital visitation, hospice care, VA benefits and care, etc., but don't include the word ''homosexual'' in a bill and it's suddenly not discrimination but preference."

Listen to any anti-gay person who is opposed to marriage rights or any rights for gay people. They insist they are not anti-gay because they don't use the word "gay" or "homosexual" in the bills/amendments to limit rights. They just give "preference" to heterosexuals, families, faith-based institutions, etc., but if we want to be a part of their "privileged world" then it's suddenly "special rights" for queers.

The Reason

Why start a blog? As the name suggest, there is feeling of being a "stranger in a strange land" permeating through my life. Yes, I live in a "red state" and yes, I am a bit of an "exile"- a misfit. Being a misfit is not always a bad thing, it allows you to see the world through "different" eyes and understand people even when they don't understand you (even if they think they do).

I'm not sure what I expect this blog to be. Maybe it will simply be a place where I can put down my thoughts and feelings. Maybe it will be a place where other "exiles" can join me and share their stories of misfitdom.

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